"Where'd you go. I miss you. Seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone. Please come back home"

Hush hush.

Can you hear the winds?

Close your eyes.

Can you hear the waves?

Breathe.

Can you hear the birds?

Is afraid a positive feeling?

Are you afraid?

Frightening by the past, present or future?

Afraid of the fact that it kills so you bury it deep inside.

I guess sometimes, it is better to leave it that way.

What shouldn't be said or saved, should be just there.

That's that.

Maybe if you say or save it for the latter, it will hurt another.

I prefer not to think about it. 

It is a constant roller coaster fucked up psychology. It never stops.

It goes round and round.

If you have the ticket, then just go participate.

You have a choice, whether to laugh during the ride or throw up then.

Or simply, take the photos and smile from far.

Your choice. 

There's a fire starting in my heart, reaching a fever pitch.

Its bringing me out of the dark,  

See how I leave with every piece of you, 

don't underestimate things that I would do.

We could have it all, but you played with fire in your hands, that you think you are holding onto something vulnerable, you turn my sorrow onto something rainbow just to show the lies that rolled behind it. You are on your best bet, best game thinking that you own the world. You played it to the beat.

I miss the old you, I know that you found a new identity and you are ashamed with the old one, but somehow, I miss the old you. Come home, soon, will ya.

Love.

"Cause  if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me, and your heart starts to wonder where on earth this could be. Thinkin maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet, and you'll see me waiting for you on the corner of the street"

In the busiest day of my life, I'm still thinking of you, maybe it was just emotionally suppressed but who knows where this could lead. Know that I would always rooting for your dreams and goals even if you might not realized the truth settings. Wake up calls.

To day

I learnt

In life

I need to choose

Nobody decides for me

I am the decider and a maker.

Listen up!

Rock on!

You are special! 

This is my heartbeat song and I'm gonna play it
Been so long I forgot to turn it up up up
All night long

You are different
Different kind of fun

xoxo

That's not my name
Even in the silence hours of early February
That's not my name
Even in the misty clouds of monsoon November
That's not my name

My name is carve on a tree in Yellowstone National Park
My name is carve in the sky of Disneyland roller coaster
My name is carve on the stone of Machu Picchu
My name is carve under the sea between the sunken Titanic

That is where I belong
What it would be like for your name?