What is happening to me?
I never gotten this bad. I meaned it felt that its just not me.
Is it because of the crisis in my fam? No I cannot put the blame on anyone.
Its my fault. My result. I really really took the what happens happens road. See, what I got. Badly injured. Its freaking ripping my heart to watch everyone else's better than you. It's not that I am not grateful but I just feel different. And I hate it. I dislike. I have to make an emergency call and stay alert. Nobody should distract me. To finals battle.