Confusion

I made a mistake. Truth is, each millisecond, I tried my best to please others whom I love in my life. Should I be penalised just for one mistake that I accidentally did. I live just to see them smile, laugh. That's all that I want. I don't ask for more. I geared myself to become a person they expect me to be. I do what they want. I obey rules. Should all the wrong things be blamed on my head alone. Is it wrong for me to be sad. Or I could not say anything? Is this it. I just don't understand. And why you, of all people.I just hope mom and dad would be home now because I really really really need their hugs. It's been a hectic and stress week for me. I miss you, abah,mak. ♥ I'll wait for you, always. I'll just keep my mouth shut.  The end actually has no end. X.O.X.O